When Will My Life Begin?- Post Grad Edition

,Hi my people! This week has proven to be slightly stressful due to the fact that I am a college senior and almost half way done with my first semester of the year. This year is, obviously, when all of the anxieties set in about the rest of your life. So many questions go through my head everyday, such as "should I go to grad school next year?" or "Hm, what if I went to law school?" and then that leads to, "Okay, when are the test dates for the LSATS or GRE?" which leads to, "Shoot, I need to start studying on top of drowning in course work," and that goes into, "Maybe I'll just get a job right after college," and, finally, just ends in sheer panic because we all know how hard and stressful that is. That being said, I re-wrote a popular Disney song from Tangled to highlight a typical day in the life of Jamie and to add a little fun to my week. So, here we go. 

*CUE MUSIC FROM TANGLED*

Seven AM, the usual morning lineup.
Hop out of bed because I feel so alive.
Put on coffee, cook eggs, and eat, and clean-up,
wash my face, and by then it's like 7:25.

And so I'll run a mile,
or maybe two or three.
I'll study so I can get my college degree.
I'll grocery shop and nap
and cook and basically, 
just wonder what will I do next year? 

Then after lunch, it's walking to class and sitting,
taking some notes, a bit of photoshop and press,
lectures and probably too much day dreaming, 
I'll gain insight, maybe write, make a rhyme, 
then I'll stress.

So I'll re-read my notes 
if I have time to spare.
I'll study all my books, 
I'll say a little prayer,
And then I'll search and search 
for a job somewhere, 
and occasion, I'll shed a tear, 

and I'll keep wonderin' and wonderin'
and wonderin' and wonderin' 
what will I do next year? 


I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and each time I let the thoughts creep into my brain, it's like a tornado hits and thoughts go flying around uncontrollably. This season of life is hard and sometimes it is very overwhelming. There are times when I think, "what if it doesn't work out? What if I don't get into graduate school or can't find a job?" Those are scary thoughts and it has made me realize how much we need some sort of hope to cling onto in these hard seasons of life. I have a friend, who I have been seeking advice from recently, that shared with me a video about seasons of life. The video talks about trees, which sounds strange, but trees are cool and they are beautiful and strong and can teach you a lot if you let them. The video is about the different seasons that trees go through. It talks about how the trees are so bare in the winter with no fruit, blossoms, or leaves. The video relates the trees to our lives and how in the moments when we feel bare and worthless, it brings on anxiety and sadness, but we don't feel anxious when we look at the trees and see that they are bare because we KNOW that spring will come and they will blossom because they are rooted and grounded. That is why seasons are necessary. We need these hard seasons in life to be able to cling onto and ground yourself in whatever brings you hope. For me, recently, I have been recognizing the need for hope and how without it, life can feel kind of worthless and you might never be able to find those little joys that I keep talking about. In the midst of life happening around me and seasons changing, through hope, I am able to stop and take in everything about my life that is constant and good, like my supportive, loving family, or the fact that I have a functioning body that has two arms, two legs, and a healthy, beating heart, or my opportunity to get a college education, and that I am able to eat three meals a day, and so many other things that I take for granted all the time. 

This post is a little deep, but sometimes you need to hear that even in hard times, life is worth living and everything will work out in the end. I hope this brought inspiration to your day, and I hope you go and live life to the fullest and blossom in all the ways you can! Go. Be joyful. Love well. 

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